nothing-thoughts

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today my mom said to me, WHEN PEOPLE SIT AND STARE
AT THE RESERVOIR. WHAT ARE THEY THINKING.
HOW CAN THEY SIT FOR SO LONG, THINKING NOTHING(?)
 i sat and stared at the reservoir, thinking not really nothing
but not really anything either.  i think i thought about bigness,
i think i thought about calm, i think i thought about my feet, approximately.
and yet i couldn't for a second begin to answer what she had asked.
 DON'T PEOPLE WHO THINK NOTHING FOR SO LONG LOSE THEMSELVES(?)
i wanted to tell her what i was thinking, and how it was not nothing at all-
i gave a winning smile, but maybe it was just the gravel and feathery foxtails
a duck splashed its wings in the water and i thought nothing of it because
i think i was lost in thoughts that were not very anything in the end.

WHEN PEOPLE THINK NOTHING, FOR SO LONG,

WHERE ARE THEY/WHERE ARE THEY,

WHERE ARE THEY?

(?)

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