IS IT /what you want?

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I want you to hear.  I want you to know what's in store for you.  There will be days when you look at your hands and you'll want to take something and smash every bone in them, because they'll be taunting you with what they could do, if you found a chance for them to do it, and you can't find that chance, and you can't bear your living body because it has failed those hands somewhere. & you'll want to scream, because you won't know whether they're real or you are, whether you're in a room full of gored skulls, or whether someone has just emptied your own head, and you'll say nothing, because the sounds you could make - they're not a language in that room anymore; but if you'd want to speak, you won't anyway, because you'll be brushed aside, you who have nothing to tell them. Is that what you want?

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rand,

fountainhead (55)

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